RIP Cory Monteith

"Cory Monteith was found dead at his hotel" omg i can't believe this seriously i can't believe this. I mean i just watched Glee 3 days ago and suddenly i know that he is no longer with us anymore. First thing that i do when i already know he's dead already is i keep asking my family "why? why he's dead ? why?? why???" i keep repeat the same words until i didn't realise that i already cry. Eventhough i'm not a fan of Cory but it made me shock until i cry because i still can't believe it. And i feel so sorry for Lea because they supposed to get married 2 weeks from now but now they are planning for Cory's funeral. Omg i can't imagine myself in Lea's position but i think i can't handle myself if i know that my boyfriend is die already (if i ever have one)

damn i can't stop crying since yesterday because i still can't believe he's dead already. I know i already said this many times but still it's so hard for me to believe it now death can happen anytime. There's only one thing that i think after i know about Cory's death, Justin's safety. Because i know there're so many people don't like Justin and it hit me that what if one day he became so stressed about all this things and he's about to give up and he........... ok i don't want to say it because it made me cry harder. The saddest thing that i saw on twitter is "go tell your idol you love them because i don't have mine anymore" "you crying because your idol didn't notice you but i'm crying because my idol doesn't exist anymore" "to all the fucking haters, you got your damn wish. my idol and my hero is dead. you happy now ?" oh god this is so sad :( remember please think what you want to do before you judge them because they are human and they have feelings too so think before what you want to say.

This is for you justin i know you won't read this but i just want to say don't ever do something that can harm yourself. I say this because i don't want to lose you. I love you so much please don't leave us i love you i love you i love you i love you so much. I won't stop loving you i promise. I can't imagine if one day i lose you because you are basically my life. You are now a part of my life. I think about you everyday, i get hate because i support you, i defending you from the haters, i get bullied because i love you. I don't care what they want to say because i already promise myself that i'll never leave you, i won't stop loving you. Once a belieber, always a belieber.

Dear god, please keep our Justin safe everyday. I can't imagine losing our idol please keep him safe. Sincerly, Beliebers..

"Be nice to everyone , always smile and appreciate things because it could all be gone tomorrow" - Cory Monteith  #RIPCoryMonteith #StayStrongLea

Instagram Video

omg i like the new instagram!! It's so cool. Now instagram can post videos so...... goodbye keek and vine! So last night justin post his first instagram video!Omggggggomggggg he's so freaking adorable!!! He's cute smile and he's cute laugh omfg I'm 10000% done. Looks like he's kinda obsessed with the instagram video lol  because he keeps uploading more and more video omg check this out >>>  Justin's first instagram video but then tmz ruin the mood ugh. They said " Justin Bieber..... High ? Or Definitely High ?" ohmygod what's wrong with this media nowdays ?! Can you just deal with the fact that he's happy ugh just because justin is happy and laughing doesn't mean he's high oh my god tmz are such an asshole. 

But today justin post another 2 instagram videos omggggggomggggg may god bless everything in this world. I hope he will be obsessed with the instagram video forever ♡♡♡ Justin Bieber aka the biggest instagram teaser in the world >>> Captain Bieber speaking....

Justin concert's

 Once again, Justin will came to Singapore this September 23. So I just check bieberfever website last night because they already post the tour dates and guess what ? No Malaysia in the list. Great just great! I'm so upset because they didn't put Malaysia on the list and not Malaysia only, Japan, Indonesia, Hong Kong, Brunei and the other asia country. You know what, I saved my money just because I want to go to Believe tour and now what ? Please don't tell me he didn't come to Malaysia. I don't care if he comes here on 2014 or 2015 as long as he come. But scooter tweet's ( Justin's manager) "and this doesn't mean we're done http://bieberfever.com/tour-dates ". Is that mean they will post another tour dates ? Omg I hope he comes here next year because if he comes here this year I don't think i can go or not because I have exams. ( ugh I hate exams so much)

And now what I want to say is I WANNA GO TO JUSTIN'S CONCERT AT SINGAPORE!!! DON'T YOU FEEL ME ??? Ughhh but I have exams!! Omg why I have to take those exams this year ? Actually I didn't care if my parents won't let me go to the Justin's concert but after I see my friend tweet's she said she's going to the concert I feel like I wanna go too but just like i said just now I have EXAMS!! If not i can go okay! Oh god she's so damn lucky :( her parents allow her to go Singapore and they said she can skip school on Tuesday. Sigh her parents are so supportive when it comes to Justin because Justin is the reason she's happy. Well my parents is not supportive they think because of Justin i didn't do well in my studies. Sigh so what i can do now is just sit at home and cry.........

Now i've missed 2 Justin's concert, My World Tour and his concert at Singapore. Sigh can you see the struggle between Justin Bieber and the exams ?! I know that i have to take this exam and it's so important to me because this exams is the one who can determining my future but you know........ sigh only Allah knows how much i love Justin

Mixed Feelings

Finally Justin gonna announce the tour dates tomorrow. Well yesterday i just ask a permission from my stepmom if i can go to Believe tour or not, so she said confirm the date first so later she can decide it. Today i woke up and saw Justin's tweet about he gonna announce the tour dates tomorrow and suddenly i burst into a tears because i was so scared and nervous. He better came to Malaysia when I'm free or else i cannot go. Sigh i wanna go to Believe tour so bad. What if he came when i was about to take my exams ? Ugh i'm so gonna kill him (but i still love him ok) What if my parents won't let me go ? Ya allah please I hope they let me go to believe tour.

Please please please please please I don't wanna missed his concert anymore just like My World tour. I think for the whole day i'm crying and i'm not in the mood. Only Allah knows how i feel at that time. I worked so hard for Believe tour okay I mean saved my own money since last year. And I don't get it why everytime I want to go to Justin's concert, there must be something that makes me cannot go to the concert. Is that meant that I and Justin we're fate not to be together ? So this time, I really really wanna go okay. I hope he came after i finished my exams.

2013 Formula 1 Singapore Grand Prix

Like I said just now I wanna go to his concert and now I just found out that he will came to Singapore this Sept 23 which means I obviously cannot go because I have exams. I repeat HE WILL CAME TO SINGAPORE!!! IT'S SINGAPORE OKAY WHICH IS JUST A FEW HOURS FROM MALAYISA!!! Well that is a bad news for me. Sigh if I didn't have exams on that day maybe I can go damn I wanna goooooooo. But the weird thing is, I didn't feel worried at all if I cannot go lol I don't know why (I'm so weird) but still I wanna go because it just take a  few hours to go Singapore duh. Bila Malaysia buat haritu taknak pulak ajak Justin datang sini ugh.

And now Justin already released his new perfume Key ( i know the name is weird bcs my idol is so normal lol only beliebers understand what i'm saying) Oh god I think i'm gonna broke after this. But he just released Someday summer edition and now Key ? Does he think we're billionaire like him ? Ugh this kid really wants to see me broke. New tour, new album, new perfume, clothing line, Bieber merch omg I really need  more $$$. Money will always be the problem when you're in a fanbase. You think being a fangirl is easy ? You think I wanted this ? You don't know me. You don't know everything. I didn't choose the fangirl life, the fangirl life choose me. 2 good news and 1 bad news in a day ugh

Billboard Awards 2013

So today is Justin's night because he won 3 awards Top Social Artist, Male Artist and The Milestone Award. I'm so proud of him. He work so hard for us and he deserve this award. For those who booed Justin at the audience are so direspectful, he is so talented. He gave such a great speech and deserve this award more than anyone. I don't give a fuck what the haters says. We (beliebers) just focus on his music and  ignore the "Jelena" drama and what the haters says about Justin.     

This is the first  time Justin perform Take You at the award show and he killed it! It was so amazing! I didn't expect his perfomance would be perfect like this! He looks much older. His voice kinda raspy and SEXYYY. Omg he's so hot. I think this is the HOTTEST AND SEXIEST performance that i ever see.

"Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, this is Captain Justin Bieber speaking, welcome abroad Bieber Air. Please fasten your seat belts and put your tray tables up and let me take you on a great adventure" 

OMG THAT IS SO HOT I'M CRYING WHY CAN'T HE SAY THIS ON BELIEVE TOUR OMG OMG HIS VOICE SOOOO SEXYYYYY OMG I'M DYING IMAGINE YOU'RE ON AEROPLANE AND THEN YOU HEARD HE SAY LIKE THAT OMGGG ASDFGHJKLPMQZKIRB

http://thebiebspants.tumblr.com/post/50902132077/welcome-aboard-bieber-air-please-fasten-your

And the way he dedicated his speech to us (beliebers)

He's so amazing. I love everytime he wins an awards and his speech always dedicated to us. It means he never forget us. He still remember us. But i kinda miss his " I came from a small town in Canada........ " speech. And I still remember his 2012 AMA speech " I wanna thank to all my beautiful, beautiful fans. They're incredible. Thank you. I love you."  HIS SPEECH WAS SO CUTE OMG HE'S SO ADORABLE UGH
So yeah once again I wanna say Congratulations to my baby, Justin Bieber. I love you baby 

Happy 19th Birthday Justin

  I can’t believe you’re 19 already, it just feels so surreal because i’ve been a fan since you were 15. Seeing you grow up in front of our eyes, it almost seems as if you haven’t changed at all but you really have grown up so much. When I became your fan in 2009, i never imagined you’d be such a big part of my life even if I don’t know you personally. You’ve changed my life in a lot of ways, and you always manage to put a smile on my face when no one else seems to be able to. Being a fan, especially your fan, is a lot of had work to be completely honest and not easy with all the constant drama and hate. And I can’t even begin to imagine how you must feel with all of the rumors and the fame. But you know you can always count on us, we’re always going to be there for you the real fans at least. I have started this journey with you and have stuck with you for 4 years and i’m not leaving any time soon. I hope that, as much as it pains me, you keep growing and finding yourself as a person and an artist. And I hope that you never forget  and continue to be that 15 year old kid who was always laughing and always excited about everything. Have an amazing birthday, go out and just have fun, you deserve it. I love you Justin Drew Bieber. Forever and always <3  

I'm a Belieber

"BELIEBER". Well, that stands for Justin Bieber fans. I'm being a Belieber since 2009, where he sings his first single 'One time'. Justin became popular when his new single 'Baby' cames out. His voice are soo flawless :O. For the first time i heard Justin song's 'Love me', i think it's a GIRL SINGING!! Hahaha!! Then, i search that song on Youtube and i was like "asdfghjklvxwzqtyipourepbvhjjasdkhfewfmeiofj!!!!! Omg! That boy is sooo cute! Who's that boy! Omggg!!!" and after that i been searching his name, where did he live and everything about Justin. :) Soo, at that time i officialy being a BELIEBER.